Bad Timing

It always seems to make it's way to me. No matter the story, it's always been the same ending. I saw it coming, but that doesn't change how I feel. I guess I was simply hoping and wishing it'll work out, as I always do. I question myself with the same thoughts over and over, wondering. I don't want to care. I'm not going to care. I can't care, I won't care. I won't look much into it, over-analyze, and just go with the flow.

College is different from high school. I like this change. I'm still nervous for tests and the workload, but I just need time to adjust. I got this. I'm keeping my eye on the prize, just as I always had in high school. I'm on a mission.

Final Thoughts

Tonight is my last night in Riverside. I'm not going very far, but it's still going to be such a change. I thought you would've made the effort, but I guess not. I should've seen it coming, but it still is kind of upsetting. I'm learning who my friends really are.

I'm not going to be mad, but simply appreciate all the memories we had. Maybe things will go back to before, and maybe not. It's time for me to move forward with my life.

As it comes to an end...

I'm not sure what to think anymore. I'm just going to go with the flow and have fun. I guess I was right and take one day at a time.

I'm learning who actually cares and matters, the ones who are making an effort. Some people surprise me...Thank you Mariah for wanting to come and hang out with me instead of going to the game. It really meant a lot that you took the time to come see me<3 I'll see you soon though, it's not like I'm going very far!

September 15

I woke up at about 9:30 to my mom talking about my doctor's appointment. So I headed down at 1ish and got two shots, my tetanus and Menectra shots. Yay for band aids! I went to Katelin's house after. I missed her so so so much<33 We went to LQ to visit Tommy Ton and went to get food at In-N-Out. Melinda and I weren't hungry then so Katelin and Ericson ate. We went to her friend Karen's house because she was sick and then walked through the park. We went to get Rubios after and then back to Katelin's with Ericson. They're so cute together! I stayed there until about 12 and we just talked<3 I had so much fun with you :)

Your actions are starting to contradict itself and I don't know what to think. Mixed signals much?